Bliss is knowing you can get 50% on your final statistics assignment and still get an A+ overall in the class (or get a B+ if I don’t even do them)
I was going to go to class for the first time in 3 weeks and then I got overwhelmed with anxiety because I have to finish a paper that is now 36 hours late and I have an online quiz I need to do and I have to tutor today and I feel like crying and throwing my laptop out the window and running away
things about today:
I woke up frantically from a dream about statistics and shortly after I started to get the ache inside my heart and stomach beacuse I’m still in repair over him.
lately I’m actually having some days where he doesn’t even enter my thoughts and I can laugh and exist like I never even met him. Other days he is all I think about and I feel like I’m trapped inside a train car observing my life through a window, watching it pass by rapidly, frame by frame. Unable to enjoy anything. Going through the motions. Waiting for the day to end so I can sleep for 10 hours and not feel.
I don’t want to have any more train car days. I want to be present in my life. I don’t want to feel consumed by the past or what could have happened in the future. I want to acknowledge my sadness without letting it control me.
So I’m here. I’m telling you all how I’m feeling today. I’m fucking sad. I’m deeply hurt and because of that I’m fucking angry. Worst of all is how much I fucking miss him because it feels like a betrayal to myself. Why do you miss someone who has hurt you so much? Why can’t you hate him and be done with it?
I could go on. I could beat myself up some more, lord knows I’m really good at that. But not today.
Today I acknowledge my feelings. I let them wash over me without judgment and without trying to push them away. And now I will continue with my day. I’m going to challenge myself and be productive. I’m going to finish my stats class by the time the sun goes down. At least I’ll have one less thing to have nightmares about.
So this was that paper I was moaning about for ages. My assessment was on Fernwood, Victoria, BC. It was 22 pages with references and appendices. It was worth 40% of my overall grade, and I got 94%, which is an A+ at UVic
It’s kinda ridiculous how validating and motivating good grades can be!
Gonna kick the rest of this semester’s ass 👊💪💃
Today I found out that my final nursing practicum will be at South Island Community Health!
Looks like I’ll be spending december boning up on my immunization and breastfeeding knowledge. It’s kinda scary spending yet another 4 months outside of a hospital not practicing nursing skills. When I graduate I will have not been inside a hospital for nearly a year. I don’t know how I feel about that really.
Truthfully, I’m thankful to not be doing shift work for my last semester of school. I’d rather not totally burn myself out before graduation. Also, not being in the hospital when they roll out the new care delivery model will be a bonus for sure.I’m lucky that I’m already IV certified, and have had lots of skill practice in my placements to date, otherwise I think I would be more frightened.
Starting January 6th I’ll be working Monday to Friday, 8-430, for 32 shifts, with a one on one preceptor. I can almost taste graduation. Maybe I’ll even love public health!!
keep your fingers crossed for me <3<3
We’re having open class discussion right now about how we would restructure the nursing program here at UVic/Camosun.
I’m pretty sure it’s the only program where you pay for University ‘level’ education and your courses are taught by Nurses.
As much as I respect Nurses, if I pay for statistics course, I’d prefer it be taught by a Statistician. The only exception to this was our biology courses.
Also, I’m currently in a 5 month gap where I’m not practicing nursing. I’m in my final year of nursing education. As our instructor just pointed out, You can’t teach someone to walk, not let them walk for 5 months, and then expect them to remember how.
My biggest beef though, is expecting me to work full time nursing hours during practicums without any pay. Why is it okay to expect us to pay thousands of dollars to work full time? How is anyone supposed to support themselves financially during these practice periods? I understand having to pay for education - but I don’t understand having to pay to work FULL TIME as a nurse - when I am usually 100% responsible for my own learning. In fact we are frequently told that our learning is our own responsibility. My last practicum I was taking on a full patient load while the nurse responsible for teaching me was unprofessionally dealing with personal problems, or the nurses on the unit were far too busy to spend any real time with any of the students.
No wonder there is a nursing shortage. You have to be dedicated with hella leadership qualities (because you basically teach yourself), and be able to put up with so much shit in order to get through this program. You also have to have a ridiculous amount of support, and a sugar daddy.
I actually think it’s entirely accurate! :D
This was my answer to #7
“The Nursing 425 class was interested in evaluating the question “is there a relationship between hours of TV watched and Life Satisfaction?”. The class hypothesized that there would be a direct correlation between hours of TV watched per day and Life Satisfaction. Data analysis showed a very high positive correlation (r = 0.997, df = 228) between the hours of TV watched per day and Life Satisfaction. In the sample that was analyzed, 99% of the variation in hours of TV watched could be accounted for by variation in Life Satisfaction scores, showing a meaningful relationship (R2 = 0.994). They were able to reject the null hypothesis of no correlation between hours of TV watched and Life Satisfaction (p < 0.001, α = 0.01). The Nursing 425 class was able to conclude that there was a statistically significant relationship between hours of TV watched and Life Satisfaction, more specifically that as hours of TV watched per day increased, Life Satisfaction scores also were also seen to increase. ”
It makes me want to cry.
Nurs 360 is a Research Methods class and Nurs 425 is statistics.
WHY 5 MILLION ASSIGNMENTS WORTH NOTHING.
The learning activities are worth 15% overall in Nurs 360 so they work out to like 0.5% each. But we have to do every assignment or we can’t pass the course.
But my next paper needs to be 12-15 pages and is worth 40% of my mark. So.
good marks make me ridiculously happy !!